.:[ Thursday, April 29, 2004 ]:.

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i don't know how to describe my siargao experience... because there are just no words to. i always just end up staring at space, reminiscing, with a weird freaky happy smile on my face.. ho-hum.... makes me half sad.

anyway, on my last night at Daku (or second to the last ba..) i wrote down memories, just random siargao happenings that i thought was important or very much worthy to remember till the end of time. so here we go.....

random siargao moments 2004

1. sleeping on the beach with Chely. more of lying down and waiting for the sunrise/ breakfast with chely.
2. standing on the board.. surf board.. for the first frickin time!!!!!! WOOOH!!!!!!! - april 21, 2004 (forever anniv na)
3. wrestling with chely. hyper evening.
4. the double rainbow while surfing with Andrea..at sunset. with slight rainshower. - april 25, 2004. perfect moment. ZUPER!
5. allyson, bindoy, and allan.
6. Karfing with Chely, and loloy!
7. Karfing with Utsie - got my first coral gash.
8. Walking at the silty whitish sand of Pansukian at low tide..at dusk. as the rain comes in.
9. falling stars. :)
10. Lhot-Lhot and friends. :D
11. Karfing with Lhot-lhot.
12. Angela's sea urchins. "i'm scared."
13. Allan's GIANT clam.
14. just talking with bon again.
15. getting WIPED-OUT!!! WHHHHHHHoooooHHHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! either from karfing or surfing.
16. Rice was born. hehe - april 18,2004. at the Punta
17. Swam with the jelly fish!!! PARTeY!!!
18. vanessa, cherymae, brenda, aizza, crystal, ding, loloy bonding by the hammock.
19. the gradual change in color of the sky as the sun rose by the mountain.
20. the sunset at the Pansukian tower top with laling and chely.
21. tarot reading by jennie.
22. billards with bindoy at pansukyan.
23. singing songhits .. "i started singing bye bye miss american pie!!.." with bon and iñigo
24. magic singing!
25. magic singing with hyperness with the alabang girls group - czarina, aua, angela, laling
26. Luke the Dream.
27. Maco the... hmm... master surfer. hehe
28. nose pimples. weird.
29. yummy chocolate chip oatmeal cookies!!! thanks to utsie and laling.
30. czarina's pinky fingers.
31. pictorial with chely after karfing.. "surfers"
32. "Sharon Cuneta show" moment.
33. sleepy boat ride with chely to Magpupungko.
34. save hogi the octopus operation.
35. Allan's cool tanning oil. gets you red in 60 seconds.
36. Jackie's dancing day.
37. Jackie's belly dancing night.
38. Andrea's nasty sugat.
39. 80's reminiscing with jennie, jackie, bon, iñigo, catrina, utsie, andrea..
40. playing Cranium!!! - rollercoaster, gandhi, etc,etc,etc
41. CHARades!! with bon and iñigo against laling, utsie and ito; and the Yangs.
42. Three for All with Laling, Utsie, Andrea, Aua.. - kaya siya "free for all" ..hmmm... :D
43. Carlo the duh
44. Allan the WWOOOOAAH!!
45. Bindoy the ................... (can you hear the silence)
46. jellfish massacre at GL.
47. Kicking Laling at the jaw.
48. no water in the middle of showering.
49. Aua carried me on her back to the Pansukian shore. well atleast for 20ft.
50. The warped turkey. :)
51. attending the longest provincial mass ever at GL. applause. applause.
52. My mosquitto bites that never heal.
53. aw man, the waves.
54. the sand.
55. the people. the company.
56. THE FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

Amen. amen. amen.

gotta go first.

hundred more memories really.... ah darn. why am i here?!!! SARP!!!!!!!!!!!!



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.:[ Wednesday, April 28, 2004 ]:.

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ah well....

i'm back.

darn.


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SURFING IS THE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SURFING IS THE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SURFING IS THE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i do believe in waves!!! i do! i do!!!!!!


ah shit. what am i doing here...?




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.:[ Monday, April 12, 2004 ]:.

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you know what the saddest story in the world is? (k maybe not THE saddest, but pretty much.. sad..)

rip van winkle. _______(rip van winkle..)

Rip Van Winkle.

can you imagine sleeping for a hundred years???? wow. SLEEPING FOR A HUNDRED YEARS. ...that's a lot of years. lots of dead friends. lots of dead loved ones. lots of dead opportunities. lots of dead moments. lots of dead time. ..he must've been the saddest man alive then, huh? waking-up like that and all..

but now here's a thought.

what if.... we're all just like rip van winkle? and this "life" right here that we're so-called "living" is actually just our DREAMS. ? dreams that we're having while we're asleep somewhere. that right now, somewhere in some world maybe called "earth," where everyone is mostly asleep, our bodies lay helplessly dreaming.. creating our "lives" right here, right now. ...a hundred years we could sleep. a hundred years we could dream. and when we do wake-up..... we die. ..but then... it's when we actually are just about to start living.

(pause..and drink a while.......hmm...)

therefore!!.. if this WERE true, then Rip Van Winkle would NOT be the saddest man, but THE quite fulfilled one. (with a hundred years of dreamin ey!) :> ..gets? gets?

a nice happy twist there for ya, Rip.

hmm..did that come out clearly? hmm... maybe not. but .. try to understand, and imagine. it would make a nice movie, i think. ..mala "matrix" and "the real world" concept.

am i getting across?

(across where?)

hmmm...

i'm talking to myself again.

yeah.. talking in my sleep.

g'night.



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.:[ Sunday, April 11, 2004 ]:.

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hmmm... now i feel like expounding..........


top 10 reasons, points, thoughts, can-relate moments from the movie explanations, and just mumbo-jumbo rambling on my revelation (yez,the REVELATION OF ALL TIME!! hihi!) as peter pan, the Peter Pan and Me analogy- based on the latest Peter Pan flick. (man, this could be the longest top 10 title ever.)

1. i don't want to grow-up. i wanna be a kid forever. but i'm not childish.. there's a HUGE difference. sure, i want to grow emotionally, spiritually, ..physically!DUH!! (pero hindi na naman ako tatangkad, at yoko namang mag-grow horizontally!so.... anyway!..) ... but like a kid, i wanna think simple. live simple. be carefree. be a master at just letting go, and enjoy. none of that "adult" crap! that complication that only "adults" seem to create. analyzing and over-analyzing TOO much. (can i just say, when i watch kids, i just can't stop admiring them..the carefree-ness that creates their natural character. unpolluted, uninfluenced minds. coz they just don't care about other people's thoughts on them. they don't care about the "adult" world and how it seems to revolve. geez, and to think, we were all kids once. ALL OF US.) we could be mature and still be kids, ya know!

*commercial quote* : "we are all born with the secrets of the world. but as we grow-up, we forget them." hmmm...... *end of commercial*

2. if you've watched the movie, there's this part when peter said something about how "feelings" messes up things. (nung andun sila nag-away ni wendy sa forrest.) i agree. ..when you're a kid, "feelings" were so much simpler. when you wanna play with someone, you go play! if you wanna be friends with someone, you be friends! no "malice" or too much thinking and paranoia involved from both parties. i like that. kasi when you grow-up, so much things get in the way e. you know what i mean.. when people put meanings to every act, to every word, to everything! assuming all kinds of things! AYCARAMBAY. i hate that. ~ hmm...well, sometimes kasi, i find myself doing the -> peter pan not recognizing "feelings" (in the innocent-kiddy sense) mode. ... sometimes, t'could be a bad thing, i know. choosing not to recognize 'feelings'. but sometimes, it could be the best answer. and that's just me.

*another commercial quote* "we all get and have feelings for certain people. but it doesn't mean we have to act upon each and everyone of them." hmmmm..... *end of commercial*

3. i'd love to fly through pink-marshmallowy skies.

4. peter pan chose to go back to neverland. stay a kid forever. stay forever happy and worry-free. but forever alone. the happiest kid.. yet the loneliest one,too. happy AND sad. watching the movie made me ponder upon the thought that, peter pan could just be the haaaaaaappiest kid you'd ever meet, but he could be the saddest one too. truly a lonely life when you think of it. ..BUT since, he chooses not to "feel" sadness, then, he's just -> happy. :) tada! always happy thoughts. ..yeah..i am a gemini. who chooses the happier side. and sometimes...really, no bullshitting.. i just simply prefer to be alone.

5. can i just repeat number 4? i get peter pan, man.. i do.. i do.. and being alone doesn't mean you're lonely. again, no bullshitting!

*last commercial quote!!* "I found myself in crowded rooms feeling so alone." hmmm... yeah. words of Madonna. *end of last commercial*

6. watch the movie! -- "i do believe in fairies! i do! i do!!!" (repeat 15 times)

7. i don't mind living inside a tree. :)

8. i don't mind getting all muddy and dirty, and not having a pedicure. hihi!

9. ooooh, and the sword-fighting skills! kewlness.

10. and finally... man, i would love to have my own dream world and just explore and have an adventure each day. -> second star to the right and straight on till morning! :)

yey!


top 3 reasons why i could never be Peter Pan.

1. i could never choose to leave my loved ones behind, FOREVER. (baka bakasyon, pwede. o kaya tumira sa ibang bahay, bansa, sige. pero sa ibang mundo? habang buhay and forever?? i don't think so. hmm..pero give me another hour,maybe i'll change my mind. who knows. hmm..)
2. i'm not so much into GREEN clothing. ;p
3. pero eto serious.. i just CAN NOT choose to live without a Mommy. MY mommy.

(PLUS, walang cable tv, walang sine, walang musika, AT walang internet!!-> WALANG BLOG!!! nooo!!!!!!!!)

hehe!.. ;p

pero go watch the movie (who ever's reading this).. truly enjoyable. :) or could be just me. me and my analogy. or whatever the hell i'm saying. man, did i say i was the affected one? i did. yeah.. easily 'affected'. touched. quite sensitive? impressionable?? whatever. a side of me not alot of people know. but i can say this, if i wrote on everything that affected me or touched me in anyway in a day, my young thin blog would become OBESE in half an hour! so.... there. just me writing. ..watch the movie! perhaps after watching THE PASSION OF THE CHRIST. :D

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WOW!!!! SUNDAY NA!!!!! HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEY! YEY! YEY!!!!!!

*ok..SUPER LAST commercial quote* "...and on the third day He rose just as He said He would." :) happy Easter y'all! :) peace be with you. *end of super last commercial quote* *end of blogging for today.*


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.:[ Saturday, April 10, 2004 ]:.

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hey.

can i tell you a secret?? ...


**

i..

am...

...Peter Pan.

"i do believe in fairies!! i do! i do!!"

***

but i'd have a flying white horse. :)

****

it was a beautiful day. :D gooooooooooooooodnight earth!


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.:[ Friday, April 09, 2004 ]:.

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and the bottom line is... as long as there is still one person who believes in hope, then there will always be hope.

...haaaaaaaay......... it feels good to be alive.

such the emoter lately. :) hehe.. oh yeah.. that's me. the affected one. lalo na today.. it being Good Friday.. plus all the 7th Heaven reruns, and now, this tv special on Mother Theresa.... Wow. that's all. ..and thus, my bottom line.

there's so much kindess and love in this world.. i think we should celebrate that more, rather than reporting on all sorts of violence and intolerance everyday on televeision news.

noh??

yeah..

k. i'll go contemplate again. perhaps learn a thing or two..

come on.. let's inspire each other. i dare you. :)



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hmm... you know when you say, write, state something, almost instantaneously (instantaneoulsy!) your head suddenly pops and enumerates 20 other contradicting statements, comments, and questions?!??? hmmm... or is it just me? hmm.. pwede rin.

"i'm a walking contradiction!" - greenday ey! \m/ \m/ wooOOOh!!

hmm.. but one CLEAR fact... --> blog causes eye bags.

there you go!!

haha!:D

good night and good morning!!!! :D


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.:[ Thursday, April 08, 2004 ]:.

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just went bisita iglesia-ing..

feels real good.

i mean REAL good.

i've never been so connected like this to my spritual,religious, whatever you wanna call it, side. but i love it so. everyday a step closer. i think since... hmm.. the year 2002. yeah.. i've come to become even MORE reminded, more acquainted to this beautiful side of life. and everything's great! super! even if things aren't so, or life isn't as, necessarily.. i know that EVERYTHING WILL BE OK. even if sometimes i just don't have a friggin clue how. or when.

anyway, i enjoy praying. i feel so refreshed and rejuvenated all the time after praying real deeply. it's the only time i really just talk. and talk. and talk. no reservations. no secrets. no lies. no worries. no pretences. no fear. just talk.

kanina i was just thinking.... during holy week, everyone seems to put EXTRA effort to be nicer. to be kinder. to be more caring. more generous. more patient. more understanding. (not that i'm complaining!) ...but my question really is.. WHY???!? WHY JUST AT HOLY WEEK DO WE FEEL THAT WE HAVE TO BE EXTRA NICE? KIND? CARING? GENEROUS? PATIENT? UNDERSTANDING? ETC, ETC, ETC???? do we actually really think that God is EXTRA watching??? (hello?!?!??!!.. doink.)

why not be EXTRA nice,kind, patient, and everything EVERYDAY?

-> is it really that hard? <-

just that EXTRA little effort everytime we think we're full of it..?

hmm.....

well is it??

i just think that it's really SUCH a waste why only at holy week (or CHristmas, or some other warmy-feely occassion) we feel (obligated, really) that we have to be BETTER PEOPLE. if we could just give that extra effort..that extra tiny little effort everyday of our lives, then the world wouldn't be as messed-up and confused as it is now.

don't you think so?

i think so. i think then it wouldn't be such a harsh HARSH world out there.. full of prejudice, judgement, impatience, anger.. revenge.. hate..

GAH!!! so frustrating how people could be sooooo easy easy EASY to forget! human beings are forgetful creatures. gah! especially when it comes to their friendly duties. but not when it comes to revenge, or utangs, and things like that, noh? we always feel we NEED TO HAVE A REASON to be nice. whether it be an occassion, a good mood, a bet, a deal..? why is that? noh? gosh. hay.... i just clench my hands and just pray.. hope.. and wish.. that WE become extra BETTER people for NO special reason at all. no hidden agendas. no ulterior motives. no feeling of obligation to impress. no guilt, or holy week conscience fever. .... now wouldn't that be just nice..? super nice. man.. i just hope we become those people. i do. really reeeeeeeeeeeeeally do. even just a tiny little effort? we can do that, i believe. i do. really reeeeeeeeeally do. :)

anyway, i hope that everyone has a meaningful holy week... :) oooh! just watched LOVE ACTUALLY kanina with bon at their super homey vethouse..:) nice, nice, nice!.:) truly is.. love actually really IS all around. :) everywhere!!!!!


LSS!! SING WITH MEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! --> "Love, love, love
Love, love, love
Love, love, love

There's nothing you can do that can't be done
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy!

There's nothing you can make that can't be made
No one you can save that can't be saved
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time
It's easy!

All you need is love!
All you need is love
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need.

Love, love, love
Love, love, love
Love, love, love

All you need is love!
All you need is love!
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need.

There's nothing you can know that isn't known
Nothing you can see that isn't shown
No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be
It's easy!

All you need is love!
All you need is love!
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need..

All you need is love! (everybody now!)
All you need is love! (all together!)
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need
Love is all you need (love is all..)
That is all you need
That is all you need" :)

goooooooooodniiiiiiiiiiight woooooooooorld!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D


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.:[ Wednesday, April 07, 2004 ]:.

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thanks to icerambles..her link has brought me back to Starlite.

..made me wanna cry. seriously.

there's something about horses that calm me. they're heavenly creatures. they are. mystical animals. full of boldness, joy, strength.. honor.. trotting with majestic aura.. proud, cool, calm... loyal, dependable.. friendly yet.. aloof. loners, drifting off some magical forest alone.. disappearing into the myst. quiet. soulful. mysterious. galloping to greet the dawn. God, i love them. horses. urgh! there's just something about them.. at times they appear to be distant and shy; hard to get; intimidating; moody. but as you stare at their large soulful peering eyes, know their ways - their antics - how their mind works - aaaah... you'll just fall in love with them. you'll see the simple, innocent, little spirit inside of them. just a bundle of joy and excitement wanting to play, be your friend, to be loved, and share the sun. Gosh.. how do i know these stuff?.. maybe something with my previous life. perhaps. perhaps. basta..i love horses. they calm my soul. they draw me back to my heart, when i drift away. i don't know when, don't know how it all started.. but cartoons such as she-ra, rainbowbrite, bravestarr.. ahh... horses, horses, horses. i could live in a barn with but one horse. and we'll be loners together.

a highschool seatmate once said that you see yourself in your favorite things. hmm...

duh! kaya nga favorite mo eh! tssssss!!

nyarrrrrrrrr! hihi!

goodnight world!!!!!


*trivia to the wasted* "Comet" would be the name of my horse. I made a list of names when i was 6.. i still have it. :)



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.:[ Tuesday, April 06, 2004 ]:.

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zzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzleepy day.

took a nap. 2:30p-6pm. lovely. but i couldn't remeber my dreams!! garrrrrr.... dami pa naman. lam mo yun? yung feeling na ang dami mong nadream, tapos parang naaalala mo, pero hinde? can't seem to put a finger on it? pero alam mo na meron e! yun. yun yun. then one day... dejavu na lang siya.

a glitch in the system.

bla,bla,bla...

just ate dinner. yummmmmm....... i'll try fasting tom. until easter. for all the sacrifices of Jesus.. and Mary....... my hunger is nothing.

thirst is everything. dandarandandan.... wala lang. :)

happy evening, world! peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeace..


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11:45pm. April 5,2004. Monday.

Monee died.

..... The loner fish that was loved. .....

r.i.p.


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.:[ Monday, April 05, 2004 ]:.

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can i ask you a question?

can we bore each other to death, and never get tired of it?


help me fly.




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.:[ Sunday, April 04, 2004 ]:.

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nye. currently watching the new teenage mutant ninja turtles. one of my favorite cartoons when i was a kid.. together with silverhawks, thundercats, mask, she-ra, rainbowbright, ghostbusters, aND MANY MORE.... anyway.. i say NYE coz the "new" ninja turtles look..... hmm.... uncute. (?) they look too muscled and too futuristic.. just like the "new" he-man. too much graphics technology. too much 3D-ness going on. they should've just showed the ORIGINAL ninja turtles.. like they did with the thundercats. that would've been cooler. vintage.:) just like if they showed the original he-man series. would've been better. unlike now, you just can't help but compare. and it seems as if the NEW versions have lost their characters. they just look like american anime bursting to happen but they never seem to get there. hmm... am i overanalyzing again?.. nah.. i'm just the affected one.. the affected fan of these cartoons of MY time. they're MY cartoons. yeah... that's what they are. and i just don't like seeing them being degraded by the current "high technology" graphics animation. high tech doesn't mean better! BRING BACK THE OLD CARTOONS!!!!!!!!!! GOOD OLD 2D ANIMATION, MAN!!! yeah!!! BRING BACK SHE-RA!! BRING BACK THE SILVERHAWKS!!!!


oh that'd be sssssSSSSSSSSSuBerrR cool. :) yiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiihh!!!!!!!! nakakakilig isipin. :D

hmm.... or maybe i'm just getting old. OR NOT.

never.


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.:[ Saturday, April 03, 2004 ]:.

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sleeeeepy saturday....

and so the sleepy streak continues.

woke-up today at 7am.. eventually got up and went to manila zoo with ais... my zoo... sounds promising. looks promising. i just wish that manila were nearer to my home.. gah!! but it was cool.. learned new stuff today.. learned that kapag maraming dried white spots/blots underneath a tree, more chances of you turning into stone. *poop! poop! poop!*

hmm... got home, ate lunch, and when ais left for paws.. i slept till around 5. beautiful. zzzzzzzzzzzzz........

i have the scariest question.... could it be? could it be that i am allergic to chicken? my only source of meatly protein!!?!?! gawd. i ate chicken kanina (and crispy chinese noodles, AND yellow cab all cheese pizza) for dinner...and now...... 4hours later... my hands are itching again, and my chest.. please tell me you're kidding, allergence. please.

or maybe i just ate too much? or maybe it's just in my head?? OR MAYBE i'm just allergic to my mouse? could it be??? hmmm...... too much blogging. hihi! ;p

ok. i think i've sounded so profound enough, i think i should stop.

HWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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LSS!!!

"I'm coming waltzing back and pushing into your head, pleeeeease...
I wouldn't pass you by.
And i wouldn't take anymore..
What sort of man goes by?
I will bring water.
Why won't you ever be glad?
It melts into wonder!
Oh you know i'm praying for you..
Now why won't you run into the rain and play?
And let the tears splash all over you.."

Ahhh DAVE!!! would you marry me?!

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i miss martina. i miss tennis.

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**FLASH REPORT** the latest news from BPS...

*the best poupon spotlight, coming home from their provincial roadtour ......*
...nakakapagod mag concert! WoooOhHH!!!

~~~

goodnight. :D





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.:[ Friday, April 02, 2004 ]:.

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WoooooooooooOOOOOOOOooooooHHhhhhH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tiring day.

fun. laughed alot. laughed again. but somehow my eyes felt sleepy the moment i woke-up this morning. hehe.. really. weird.

hay. we walked and searched high and low..but we didn't get to find THE BEST bikini/tupis/swimsuit whatever you wanna call it. WALA. as in. pero daming laugh trips man! haha!:D duh, kaya nga medium e. ..HUH?! ..ayun. :) we just bought black sandos from bench. the three of us. the same sando. :) coz we have a plan... hmmmmmm... :) the best plan. abangan...

oh well.. another day, another morning closer to Daku. honest to God, i can't wait to go to the beach and smell salty sea air. *inhales....inhales.....never exhales... chokes... dies.*

*comes back to life* ..OH! read this photography book kanina at powerbooks.. astig! i love photography books! as in LOVE. it inspires me so. i love candid shots..yung mga in action..super natural.. no posing.. no scripts..just..a simple captured moment. AnYWAY, this one book i opened was entitled.... ...oh no.. i suddenly forgot. haha! told ya my brrrrain was half asleep the whole day today.. hmm.. anyway, it showed pictures of icons. movie icons, music icons, fashion icons, sports icons,etc,etc.. and short quotes about them. galeng. i love quotes. short but precise. like a haiku, but less vague. like a flower but less yellow. HUWAAAT?!?!??!! hehe.. joke.:D ....quotes=drama. tapos sakto sa mga photos. for more drama and emote talaga. i love it! :)

i love photos of hands. there was this one picture of an old lady's hands praying. macro black and white photo. with her bumpy old veins, and dirty long nails... there was so much... drama in one shot. it told a story. DRAMA. hardships. hope. despair. memories. wishful thinking. pain. suffering. joy. tears. secrets. heartache. bliss. and all you could see were her hands. ..nice.

huwaw. it's 11:57 and i'm sleepy as a sloth. what?! ..ok. a sloth. right.

goodnight, goodnight, goodnight. :) ..and the dreaming goes on......................................zonk!



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"must be strangely exciting to watch the stoic squirm.
must be some what heart telling to watch the shepherd being shephered."

wala lang. :) just singing..

today's another happy sunny day! just like yesterday. chely, aissa, ia and i went to abs-cbn to go artista hunting... quite a twilight zone. but then what d'you expect from abs-cbn. hehehe.. yeeek! yoko talaga sa ABS!! something in the morals they somewhat lost. their world revolve around the wrong things. it's weird. we all kinda sensed it talaga. ...kaya kami na lang ang nag-picturan. :) better plan. hehe

then back at the compound, probably one of the more unplanned eventful days at bunker hill.. may photoshoot cousin ko for U. using my cousin's flaming red GTO.. ye. ayun.. nakinuod kami. si chely nagka-paparazzi moments pa. hihi! ais!! papayat din yun..*winks* haha! :D superferry! sakay na!!

then we went to greenhills...and for more pictorials sa theatermall. wooh! new set of pics for the best trio, now, the best poupon spotlight. :D BPS. yeah. ..then, my THE PASSION moments na yun. posted that last night.

TODAY naman.. it's time for lunch, but i just ate breakfast, kasi woke-up late coz i slept again after waking-up. just felt real sleeeeeeeeeeepy. ..but later we're off to megamall to go tupis/swimsuit/tsinelas/summer beach etc stuff. BPS. :)

right now... i still feel so nice from last night's The Passion high. :) i hope i don't get off the feeling.. i love it.

ayt! mamaya uli. maligo na lang muna ko. dizizOt. there.


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.:[ Thursday, April 01, 2004 ]:.

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*mood* = reflective. contemplative. serious (but in a really good soul-searching kinda way). hopeful. blessed. sorry. good.
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i've just watched The Passion.

i came into the theatre,setting my mind.. saying that i'll be the "unattached" viewer.. that i'll watch as if it were any other movie.. not a movie about Jesus Christ. i said to myself... i'll probably NOT be as affected as any other person, though i am religious and a strong believer, it's just that i'm not really the type who squirms or covers her eyes to violence or blood on screen. i'm good at taking that. plus, i'm a film student..i'm used to watching reeeally bloody movies that revolve around hate.

but wow. ...

by the end of the movie... the ticket stub that i was holding in my hand the whole time was crumpled as it could get. kulang na lang yung auntie anne's lemonade inumin ko pati yung plastic cup.. and my heart was beating like i had been holding my tears back since birth. ang bigat man! super dama ko. SUPER!! feel kong yakapin mga tao and just let them feel loved.

there were moments from the film.. especially where Jesus spoke, or scenes with Mary, or Jesus with the Apostles... that i couldn't help but really feel the words..His message... and just let the tears roll down my cheeks. though i didn't naman cry the whole time. or cry as in IYAK/ hagulgol. it was more of.. guilty,"oh my God, i'm so sorry" kinda tears. basta. ..i don't know how to explain. i came in confident that i would NOT be part of the crying audience, but bottomline is... I GOT HIT. and it was beautiful. it was the perfect reminder. the perfect message. especially this Lenten season with the Holy week ahead. it was good. :)

hay.

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i don't know how to define GOd. I don't know how to define Jesus. I don't know how to define Love. Nor mercy and forgiveness.

..but they're one and the same. ONE and the same. and more. more than we, human beings, mere people..tiny little ants... could ever understand and grasp. that SUUUuuuuuuper UNCONDITIONAL, overflowing, exploding, no holding back GOODNESS. KINDNESS. COMPASSION. UNDERSTANDING. FORGIVENESS. MERCY. LOVE. ...HE is ALL that and more. ALL THAT AND MORE.

grabe.

after watching the movie, i thought to myself, "how could people forget..? forget His sacrifice? His love? and even.. His existence??" how could we all do and think such nasty, anger-filled, moronic things to each other? how could we have ended up here? in the world that we're living in now..where there's so much hate and misdirected people. ...HOW?

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I don't know. I don't know how to explain. and I know not to define.

But i know how i feel. and right here, right now, I just want to say a few things. I believe in God. I believe in Jesus. And everything that HE stands for. in the air that i breathe..in the people that i meet.. in the stars i stare at.. in the beggars tired feet.. We're all connected. And there is love all around. There is God all around. and we must not forget. never.

we owe each other that. ..we owe Him that.

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Let us spread the LOVE people. let us spread the Compassion. the Care. the Goodness.

..have a Blessed beautiful evening, day, life. :)



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RANDOM THINGS I LIKE THE MOMENT I WAKE-UP...

1. My tummy. coz that's the only time it's flat.
2. waking-up energized. not all sleeps are energizing.
3. the sun. as long as it's not humid.
4. remembering my dreams. lotsa crazy ones.. :)
5. thinking of breakfast. when i almost end up eating oatmeal all the time. duh.
6. remembering what nice shows are on tv that day. yahoo!!
7. hearing my nephew sing by my door.. "i'm gonna let it shine. Let it shine.. let it shine.." :)

Good morning!!! :)



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