.:[ Sunday, May 30, 2004 ]:.

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balang araw... :)


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hi. :)


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May 26, 2004. Wednesday.

O kay lambing
O kay linaw
Ang ganda ng mundo
Sumabay sa kasiyahan
Tayo't tumalon.
Hindi kailangang humibi
'Di kailangang masaktan
Tayo na't hawak-kamay
Harapin ang 'di malinaw.

Humakbang paharap
Umatras ng saglit
Huwag magmadali
Nasa atin ang susi.

Ngumiti't tumindig
Ganda mo'y ilakad
Nasa loob mo ang Ilaw
Yakapin mo ang araw.
Kantahin natin ang langit
Managinip, huwag matakot
Puso'y palayain
Mga pakpak gamitin.

Ikaw at ako
Magkasama dito
Sabayan natin ang mga alon
Lakbayin natin ang mundo.

O kay lambing ng ingay
O kay linaw ng gabi
Tara na't hawak-kamay
nating isigaw
O kay ganda ng mundo
Ng buhay...
Ng tao.

Sabay nating yakapin
Ang mga takot at galit
Palayain, ibahagi
Ang pag-ibig na nasa atin.

Ikaw at ako
Kaya natin 'to.
Kaya mo.
Kahit ano.
Tara na.
Hawak-kamay
Lipad tayo.

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Good evening. :)

Let's all just breathe....

"You can be anything you want." - Will of Black Eyed Peace




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.:[ Saturday, May 29, 2004 ]:.

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ah darn digicam won't upload. been installing and re-installing for the past 2 hours... wanted to post our pretty roadtrip pictures. :) pretty, oh yes. hihi! aaaah sarap bumyahe with friends. such freedom and relaxation..brainwaves getting along.. everyone on the same page....ah just plain simple real cool fun. :) ..the whole trip was filled with music, laughter, nature, friendship, spontaneity, beauty, positivity, joy, happiness, warmth.....in one word.... GOD. :) a trip filled with God. aaah... just perfect. makes me feel so FULL. gaaaaAAAaah!!!!!:) feel like exploding into a million sun dust particles. *poof!* and in that way i can embrace everyone... and make them feel special.. and let them know that they're never alone.... coz God is everywhere. just EVERYWHERE. :) E-V-E-R-Y-W-H-E-R-E. :) :) :) ...... aaaah sarap. :)

beauty is all around, we just have to see it.

...sometimes we ask too much , we forget.

let's try not to.

~o~

ah anyway, SOOOOOOOOOOOOBRANG SAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

....Leo,Mark,Tanya,Sophie,Chely,me.....mga 2:30AM chely arrives at our house...15mins later, Leo and Mark arrive....we pick up Ia..then Tanya... i stay at the back of Surf. ...ah the change of the sky as the sun is about to rise... sun rise. breakfast at Jollibee Urdaneta. TUNAPIE!!!:) ....SURF's adventure with the bus at ilocos norte...somewhere out there....singing...singing....paputukan man tayo ng baril!!...INSOMNIA of chely...Betchay's children's names...EUVEL..MAR-V-LUZ....hahaha!:D...and many more.....eating stops...VIGAN.. lunch at cafe Leona... walking... raining.... buying local vigan masks....thinking of buying salakots....chely bought a bag.....empanada....i bought a Philippine map sa Natio, Chely bumili ng caramel sundae sa mcDo....travel,travel,drive,drive,drive..... ilocos norte!..PAGUDPUD!...looking for a place to sleep...the scary lady o bakla ba yun...hihi!:).....Arinaya..P2000 package for the night....ate dinner there....AIssa on the phone :)...oh darn crickets....3 wide single beds connected...from left to right - mark, leo, tanya, ia, me....chely sleeping on the floor....sophie leaving me 5inches of the bed. THANKS, SOPHIE!! THANKS.:) :) :) hihihi!!.... woke-up at 4am.. took a bath......left arinaya to catch the sunrise at Patapat bridge..... AAAAAhhh sophie's wonder shades.:) ..my most snazzy look ever..HAHA!:D.....beautiful beautiful beautiful morning!!..pictorial by the bridge..... more singing!!!.... stopped at the "earthen whales" sight...took more pictures..... nature tripping....found PADI,the crab..on the PAD rock...:)...went back to the resort... SLEPT. took a nap outside near the beach....the seat was damp, but the breeze was enough...aaah the sound of the waves crashing....the perfect nap. ...breakfast. chely's SWEEEET oatmeal.:) ....mark's uncooked breakfast. BOYCOTT!!....hyper sa room... WREsTLING with chely!!!!!...my bukol.....nag-beach for an hour...sand mites...lay down on the sand.....leo and his tanning efforts......chely and i met the clouds........aaaah...:).....left pagudpud....to the light house!!!.....GOAT TRIP!!!!!!!! :D hahahaha!!!! slow goat.... ah yes, thanks to mark's spirit :).....mga nanglilimos.... ..LUNCH AT LAOAG. macy's diner. tinapa rice!!!!...calamares....Leo's halo-halo..sophie's fried ice cream....ELVIS...pictorial by the counter.....left for LA UNION.......laoag to la union drive - the best part of the road trip....natural high!!!!!........felt GOd sooooo much talaga :D :D......love!love!love!!...such warmth and positivity...:)....SINGING!SINGING!SINGING!!!..IMPROVISED RAPPING....CHEERING.....SOPHIE!SOHPIE!!SOPHIE!!! MAY ARI NG GLOBE!!! ..BETCHAY!!BETCHAY!!!BETCHAY!!!!!!!KONSEHAL! SENADORA!!PRESIDENTE!!!....IMMORTALITY AWAITS!!TAKE IT!!!!IT'S YOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... wooooOOOOOOOooOOOHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!.........so much energy!!!!!!!! BRING IT ON!!!!!!!.......SING!SING!SING! ROUNDSONG,IMBENTO SONG MIX...."PRAISE THE LORD!" - sophie to the man outside......THE GREATEST LOVE OF AAAAAAAALL!!!!!!.......WOOOOOOOooooOOOOooOOOOhHHHHH!!!!!!!!....SUNSET..called Aissa....sang to her...GRABE!!!!! SUPER HIGH TO THE MAX!!! :) SARAP!!!!.... LORD!! THANK YOU!! GRABE!!!!... .....ahhhhhhhh.... then... La UNion.. :) 7PM..dinner at Se-Bay.....chicken mami....the painted wall...looked for a place to stay in.......Surfer's CAMp....met Kuya Jun...P1400 package night...EXCITEMENT IS IN THE AIR... SARP! SARP! SARP!!!!!!!!! .......two big beds, two floor cushions.... me and chely on one bed, tanya and leo (na dapat si sophie) on one bed... mark sa isang cushion.. and SOPHIE "THE EPITOME OF SLEEP" LEE on the other cushion.:D ....sophie and her stoic sleeping position....CLASSIC!!..HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!:D .....before sleeping laugh trip!!!!!.. AHAHAHA!!!!.......why sophie?!?! WHY?!?!!!...:D....mark's masahe..... Leo and his chansing-yakap-habang-natutulog habit/"excuse" ;p..... chely and me laughing some more.......ano na nga number ni aissa??...tanya sumagot kahit tulog na...HUH?!?! shockers...(pero naaalala naman daw niya yon...)......sleep....chely and i woke-up at 5am to check out the sunrise by the beach... hmmm, it was behind the mountain..pero ok lang.:).......aaaaah the waves look promising.....slept again..woke-up around 8...nawala ang waves.....BREAKFAST!..went out to burger machine....chely and i bought YUMMY BREAD!!!!.....THE HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BREAD!!:):):).....yummmm.....back at La Union...call from Viva...contacted Anthony the surfer guide from Surfer's Inn......come on waves please come!!.....at our room...we did our hair..bead wrap......tanya's special beading skills...and my knotting :)....sophie's reading......more beads....nail polish on mark.... LUNCH!..at..REGGIE'S PIzzA resto (where we bought bread earlier)....hawaiian pizza and GARLIC and cheese pizza......the worm :).....went back to Surfer's Camp.....ready to suuuuuuurf!!!!!!!!!!!!!....at the room....HypER!....LIGHT AS A FEATHER ATTEMPT ON SOPHIE.....EXCITEMENT IS IN THE AIR YET AGAIN.....went out by the beach....spoke with the Australian lady....."yeah...after 3years....we're gonna have a pad...":D.....picture before surfing..... SHET!!!!! EXCITEMENT IS HEREEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! RUSH! RUSH! RUSH!!!! ..our LOOOOOONG BOARDS....... AAAAH THE WAVES ARE COMING (but not so...but good enough!!!!!).....SARF!!!!!!!!!! SAAAAAAAARF!!!!!!!!!!! SSSSAAAAAARFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!! hit chely on the shin bago pa mag-sruf..hihi!:)....anthony, mickey, allen...our surfing mentors..... SHET!!!!!!!!! SUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!! leo stood in his first attempt.. ASTIG!!! ...mark too!!.... WOOOOOOOOooOOOOooOOOOoOOHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! chEly getting to stand and surf!!!!!SURF!SURF!SURF!!!SURF!!!SURF!!!!!SUUUUURRRRFFFF!!!!!!!....my first "WALL" "WALLING" and i didn't even know..:D :D :D......WoOOOooOOOOOHOooOHHHH!!!!!!....SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIYEEEEEET!!!!!:D......SUPER ADRENALINE RUSH MEHN!!!!! felt like surfing forever.... LEARNED SO MUCH!!...aaaah...soooon, soon,soon....tricks here we come!!!!:D :D :D......the LA UNion waves were calm ..calmer than siargao.....the waters were less clear...but the beach break was cool...:) so much easier and less scary than the corals of siargao.....but Siargao.... OH BUT LET US NOT COMPARE...:D........WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the best surfing day....and many more to come..:) :) :)...SUUUUUUPER HIGH!!!!!! sarap mag-surf i cannot describe. i wanna be where the surfing is (sung in my most Ariel "part of your world" nagmamakiawa voice..hihi!)......quick packing away (may excess na daw..and ia has to get home!!wooohoo!)....left La Union for Manila 7Pm....didn't get to drink our buko ni chel....sat at the back yet again.....take-out jollibee...prayed...then laughed...sang.....CHELY AND I SINGING 'IN MY LIFE' BUT NO!!!!!...NAGSAKSAK BIGLA NG CRAIG DAVID CD...NA NAG-SISKIP NAMAN!!!...NAKOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!....hahahaha!!!:D :D ...laugh trip some more....:D.. "madali ba yun o..ma-HAIRWRAP??" ..:D..wooooh! mabuhay mga corny!!!:D... ..slept.. nabugbog sa likod ni Surf.. aaaah...tehn back in Manila 1AM......

grabe.

so much memories pa! too many to mention and remember... all i can say is THANK YOU, GOD.. SOBRA. from the pit of my soul... thank you for such a beautiful world, keeping us safe, giving us time, giving us each other, thank you for friendship, for friends, and the lovely weather, the waves, the opportunity to do all these things, and all the people we met, and all the other simple little things we've encountered, didn't notice, appreciated..... EVERYTHING. it's all for YOU and because of YOU, Lord... THANKS. :)

hay....

makes me feel so.... super super super super SUUUUUUUPER BLESSED talaga.. i feel so happy again, i feel like exploding.... :)

K!

.....aaaaaaaahh........such a lazy bumming slow-paced relak saturday.... all i need. need to rest my bugbog body. MGA PASA KO DIBA!!!!! GRABE. :) ang saya. :D hay... sarap.:) :) :)

ok then... i shall yet again, attempt to fix this uploading photo glitch.


we shall surf again. :)





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.:[ Monday, May 24, 2004 ]:.

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hi.

another sleepless..well, nearly sleepless.. night here over at the barrio. chely came by last night and we listened to some old LPs - beatles, police, mga records ng dad ko na mga lumang astig; planned, planned, planned; went surfing for SURFING; videokeed; slept at 6ish woke-up before 9; interneted some more; paid the club at nag-withdraw; spoke with ais on the phone; kumain; humawak ng paniki, at... pumuntang gale. Fun.:)

..and we're off to ilocos ("ilocos") tomorrow. :D 3AM, GOTO KING,PHILCOA.

don't know where we're gonna stay yet. actually.... i'm not even so sure if we are going to ilocos. thus, "ILOCOS." hehe.. dami kasing pwedeng puntahan sa North.. for waves. :D weeeeeeeheeeee!!!!!

hmm.... but where ever we end up going, i'm sure it's gonna be fun. :) fun is what you make it. huh? yeah.. just try and catch my drift here. lack of sleep.

hopefully though.. we get to surf. :)

TODAy starts the French OPen. :) go venus. sana mag-cameo uli si martina. HINGIS ah. we know that lola navratilova will still be playing. to tell you honestly though, she's still in great shape. probably in better shape than some of the youngsters. (yes, i am an analyst.)

ok

thoughts, thoughts, thoughts......

questions, questions, questions...

why can't it stay like this forever?

coz all that has a beginning has an end?

all things must come to an end?

the end is the beginning is the end?

everything happy must end, same as everything sad has an end too?

ay...

i have no answers for you.

i just believe that in life, everything is changing. it takes such a constant effort and a vast amount of time to keep things the same. nothing is permanent. even you and i. me and you. our minds. our beliefs. our goals. the world.

but living is all about the effort, baby. it's all about the push and pulls. the twists and turns.. the twists and shouts. :) it's all about the effort. the dreaming and the grinding.

ah

you and i...

forever is a pretty long time.

but we'll get us there.


thoughts. thoughts. thoughts.

...of the sleepless mind.

sense? no sense? non sense?

oh it's all in the hearing.

shhhhhhh........

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shucks, it was super sunny today. so hoTTT. ....perfect. :) thank you God.


good night to all. spread the peace and the love.

just... breathe.


*oh there. kakapakita lang kay martina.:) yey! SHE'S ALIVE. hay. please comeback, martina. please. let's play smart again.




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.:[ Saturday, May 22, 2004 ]:.

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what are you hungry for?






pahiyas. may 15, 2004.
sago't gulaman.




heaven / langit.










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.:[ Friday, May 21, 2004 ]:.

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i forgot to make kwento yesterday (aah, again said in my most alabanger taglish accent..excuse me..).

When i woke-up (yesterday), feeling oh so lutang with todo mahapdi eyes because i slept at 5am, went to my mom's room, turned on the tv, and watched the twolves-kings game.

then enzo comes in. (i suddenly remembered that he knocked at my door earlier this morning, and me,the super sleepy one, opened the door and just told him that i was still asleep. "later na," i said.)

so anyway, here's what happened...

*enzo walking towards me..*

deng: hi patoots! did you eat na? (i noticed his jolly mood as he sat beside me sa couch. parang may masayang gustong i-share look..)
enzo: yes. ...i ate muffins.
deng: wooow! muffins! from where? where did the muffins come from? kenny rogers??
enzo: "no. ..i baked them. mommy and i baked this morning. meron pa. i saved for you. one for you, and one for lolo."
deng: "wwwooow!! you baked!! galeng!!! *apir kami* is it yummy?? *enzo nods* woooow!! congrats!! *shook his hand, hug* ..ok,ok, i'll go down later and taste them,k? coz i just woke-up and i'm watching pa something e. later,K?..k."

so enzo left the room, super excited and proud. Me, i was still watching the game.

then like after a minute.....


enzo comes in the room with a muffin served on a plate.
and it was for me.


*TEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAARSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*


i swear!!...


it was the sweetest thing.


super kaya natouch ako. kasi hindi naman siya ganun. hihi! pero as in ang lakas ng AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWW,THANK YOU ENTS!!!!!!!!! COME HERE.. tapos hinug ko siya, then i said, "thank you!" tapos sabi niya, "you're welcome." with his happy face and tight smile :) then he back went outside na.

GAAAAAAHD!!!!!!!!!! grabe! just for that moment... the world was just... PERFECT.

super.

so much love all around, man.. SO MUCH.

the scene was like picked out from a hallmark card.

hay. super nahappy lang ako. another, my-heart-just-melted moment.

:)

ok.

there.. that's my happy morning moment with enzo that i forgot to make kwento yesterday. :)
hihi! ;p

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today, another rainy morning. the only difference is..... I WAS ABLE TO SLEEP. :D *celebration!* 11 hours no less. super ang saya. heeeheeee! :D thanks to chely, ais, and bon, who all texted me, supported my early sleeping endeavor. *cheers!* woooh!!! sana mamaya uli.

i just wish it would stop raining na, para matuloy na mga out of town planssssss...

..before i get "busy" kuno.

*cheers to the sun!!* come out, come out, don't be shy....

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Happiness is not happiness if you can't share it with anyone.


at least for me.


*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*


happy day everybady!!!!!! :)




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.:[ Thursday, May 20, 2004 ]:.

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WOOOOoOOooOOoHH!!!!!! LET'S HEAR IT FOR MINNESOTA!!!!
I BELIEVE!! I BELIEVE!!!!

BEAT LA!!! BEAT LA!!!
BEAT LA!!! BEAT LA!!!

KG!!! KG!!!
KG!!!! KG!!!
MVP! MVP! MVP!


KG: 32 points, 21 boards




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hihi! natuwa lang ako... found this "piece" (whatever!) i wrote on my journal of sorts before..one of my hindi-nanaman-ako-makatulog nights.. i was writing about.. LOVE. and instantly i said to myself.. shit! this deserves to be on my blog. ....it sounded so... weird of me....but...... kinda honest too. anyway, here it goes.


"(a written) CONVERSATION WITH MYSELF #219"

HAve you ever been in love?

No.

Not the type you watch in movies or tv.

-- head over heels. can't eat. can't sleep. can't stop smiling. can't stop shying away. can't stop thinking about meetings and conversations between you & i.

-- breath becomes poetry. poetry of your body. your smile. your voice. aaah.. wings on my feet.. so high. so scared. nothing to lose. everything to lose. can't breathe. can't talk. talk the whole night long. confused. awakened. always in the middle of emotions. and yet... everything's so beautiful all of a sudden. there is so much to live for. so much hope. so much promise. so much.... love.

..

No.

I haven't been in love like THAT before. -> (or does it even exist?! or do we just make it all up?? ..i don't know.) No. Or atleast not in this conscious life time.
But everyday I love. SO MUCH. In awe of SOOOO much beauty. of all of God's little and big miracles. Oh i love.

And I love it.

I appreciate it so much that i don't care if i don't fall in love like THAT anyway.
Coz if i don't find you...
I'll wait till after my death. Till the next life begins.
I'm just not the type who compromises on such important things.
And I don't go living for that search either.
That is not the bar that defines my happiness.
..my completeness.
my whole being.
my whole purpose.
...my better half.
my other half.
I don't believe in such halves.
there's just you..
and (another being) YOU.

..

No.

I haven't been in love like THAT before.
And i don't feel sorry.
It is not everything.

Love is.
God is.
And everyday I see it. Everywhere. In everyone.

I don't know...
But for me...
I am in love.

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pucha. there you go. i don't think i've ever spoken about being in love so much before in my entire existence. but .... hey.... . . . insomnia is my truth serum. huh? yeah. ..ever. :)

anyway, check out chely's blog! blogspot blog... the best. :) naiyak ako. hihi! :) K.


I LOVE YOU WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D


ay wait, last post ule! journal entry uli. hihi! written 1:38am March21,2003.

i feel so much love. happiness. joy. excitement. laughter. feathers. hugs. stars. fireworks. purple daisies..... :) :) ...

i just want to tell people how beautiful they are. And how beautiful life is. ..And how we are all meant to do and make beautiful things.



My heart is at it again....

It (Life. You. Me.) is just so amazing.

So beautiful. (Life. You. Me.)

Sometimes my heart... it just feels so much....

it just embraces itself.

WE'RE ALL BEAUTIFUL!! nikebeautiful. :D :D :D


K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


~~ dahil 'pag kasama ka... hindi ako tinatablan ng bala. :)




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.:[ Sunday, May 16, 2004 ]:.

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GRABE! di na naman ako natulog. nagiging sked ko na ata na hindi matulog one day, then sleep the next, then not sleep na naman.. friggin shooot. dahil din sa editing.. pero ang masama dun.. nasasanay ako!!!! nyarrrrr... oh well. editing was actually good today. ah last night pala. basta yon. i was in an editing mood. plus, buti na lang din naiwan ni chely yung mini notebook niya. nag-drawing lang ako.. saya. :) it has been awhile. i loooooove small notebooks. when i was in highschool i'd buy iba-ibang brand, sinusubukan ko lang, kasi yung iba manipis yung papel..e mahilig ako mag-draw with ink/signpen.. so deins.

wow i'm blabbing/blogging. therefore, BLAGGING.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooOOOoOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..nagagawa pag di ka natutulog.

anyway, ayun. so wala, ang saya lang mag-drawing. may days na feel ko mag-drawing lang forever. pero may days din na sus, wala talagang anything. and today..was a drawing day. :) neat. it has truly been awhile. ka-miss. ..i'm waiting for my writing day. missed those superbly. *superbly*

and so!!! ..what is up with life and love and leaves and doves?!!! how is everybadey?!?!! gosh. ...i wonder how many people are feeling so...... oh crap,kakatext lang ni ina..may revisions uli. hahaha!! labo kasi talaga ng audio e. deads. anyhoo, sila na ata mag-rerevise. sana. i not like editing!!!! not my cup of tea. i don't even drink tea. huh? yeah. only when desperate. ..so what was i saying?

ah.. yes. economics.

hihi!

i miss the ocean.

i wish i could just live by the sea and draw,and write, and take pictures, and go observe nature and its kings and queens, animals left and right, and play the guitar, eat oatmeal, and surf, .....AND sleep.

i want to swim in the salty sea.

somewhat theraputic.

DEFINITELY theraputic.

heals me. body and soul.


*..yuck nanalo Lakers. *


i ate so much lugaw just now. SO MUCH. ..well, atleast may gana na uli ako.

i was looking at my film notebook kanina..kasi dami din ako mga drawing drawing dun, gusto ko lang basahin. tapos meron dun saying.... "IN A WORLD WITHOUT FUTURE, EACH MOMENT IS THE END OF THE WORLD." ...hmmm... i think i got that from the four agreements. i like writing down quotes and stuff. food for thought when the soul goes hungry. ..wouldn't it be nice if people had no concept or urge or that nagging NEED to plan and worry about the future? wouldn't life be so much funNER? in a world where poeple don't worry about tomorrow, then everyone would be living fully each moment, each given day. *imagine there's no heaven...imagine all the people, living life indeed. - Mr.John Lennon* ..it's sad how sometimes we just take days for granted. like they're always gonna be there. but they're not. things will never be AGAIN. youth will never be as wonderful. life will never be as great as the moment laid in front of you. if i had something to live by, it would be this... "Everthing in life is a choice. And it's all about perspective." ..perspective, perspective, perspective. ..though it gets shady and mixed and messed-up sometimes..it's always good to have more than one. For success is failure turned inside out.. happiness is not blissful when there is no sadness. for WITHOUT THE BITTER, BABY, THE SWEET JUST AIN'T AS SWEET."

..i don't know where all this is coming from. i don't even have a point.

just thoughts.

just thoughts.

just thoughts.

*fade-in music: twilight zone*
*fade-out music: eye of the tiger*

HUWAT!??!

*ah 'eye of the tiger" dedicated to bon, ever. hihi!:)*

man oh man oh man......... di ko pa rin na uupload pictures. katamad e. bagong install na naman. kalbo pc ko ngayon e. ...kahapon naisip kong magpakalbo.

last night i saw some old kewllege buddies.. mga samaskomers... birthday kasi ni aimee. always nice seeing old friends. nakakamiss mga jamming beatles night by the railings namin nina agnes, soki, and liam.. i remember bringing bubbles everyday. fun, fun!! yung mga nasa powerpuff bottles pa yun, kasi dami sa tiangge. tapos laging nanunuod ng sine. THE FELLOWSHIP. pati UAAP... ewan ko kung bakit, hindi naman ever nanalo. pero masarap lang kasi sumigaw na parang may pag-asa yung team kahit na... basta masaya. :) masaya pag underdog. :) U!NIBERSIDAD! NG PILIPINAS! U!NIBERSIDAD NG PILIPINAS!! ...kewlness. tapos yun yung time na magulo utak ko. magulo kasi parang feeling ko kung tinuloy ko yun, hindi pa ko graduate ngayon. hihi! basta magulomagulo..

thank God for broadguild actually. kept me.... sane? kept me... on earth. yup. but i think it was just me. my head stopped.. and talked awhile.. realized that all the shit was just chocolate pudding.

huwaw.

ok. :)

enough.

hihi!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hindi dumudugtong-dugtong yung mga iniisip ko!!!! pero type pa din ako ng type diba... like... why noT!!!!

fine.

aryt. ...oh, i saved this message nung dapat nung sunday ko pa ipopost. so here it is. all about pahiyas and life and love and leaves and doves. :) k!!!!!!!

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SUNDAY MAY 16, 2004.

hello. :)

kahapon was pahiyas day.. with my family, tita,tito,cousins and nephwes, and chely..my family... there you go. :) galeng, saya!! ang kulay. ..ang INIT!!!!!!! grabe. dami pang pagkain na puro tig limang piso lang! SAGO!!! *langit/heaven* ..dami pipol! daming kids.:) sarap kunan ng feeecturez! post ako pix pag na-upload ko na. mejo gipit sa oras e. sino ba kinakausap ko? ah tama.. ako. wooooOOooH!!!

huh?

k. :)

at congrats nga pala din kay aissa, at sosyal na ang telepono niya, salamat sa mga Canadians. may the power of gino padz continue to bless you... go modulate, my FRIEND. GO...

ANYWAY.... on the way home from our pahiyas, quezon experience, SUPER TRAFFIC sa laguna. NAPAKA super traffic!! and when it's super traffic your mind becomes to get more imaginative. and when you're with a friend whose brainwaves just happen to be flowing the same direction as yours.... kaboom!!!!! happiness. :D for that, chely and i gave each other alternative names. :) mind you, NAMESSSS. :) ....BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY!!!!... we gave "AISSA" *..not her name anymore..* alternative names too. :D :D :D ......binuo namin ang alphabet. :) so here we go....... chel and me first.

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DENG

A- Aika
B- Bettina
C- Cali/Choee
D- Denise/Dannie
E- Egay
F- Fiji
G- Gab
H- Hindy
I- Iel
J- Joan
K- Kaia/Kina/Kiwi/Kola
L- Lia
M- Melanie/Mel
N- Nixie
O- Olani
P- Pia/Pao
Q- Q
R- Rip
S- Sachi
T- Tria/Trix
U- Ulap
V- Veda
W- Weian
X- Xian
Y- Ylla
Z- Zoe

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CHELY

A- Ali
B- Bea
C- Cara
D- Debbie
E- Ella
F- Farrah
G- Gabbie
H- Hindy
I- Ikay
J- Jessie/Jax
K- Kisha
L- Lexi
M- Mitzi
N- Narra
O- Ozzy
P- Pia
Q- Qota/Quina
R- Roxy
S- Suzy/Sari
T- Tracy
U- Ulani
V- Vyx
W- Wicco
X- Xia
Y- Yola
Z- Z

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AISSA!!!! ***not her name anymore***

A- Alma!!!
B- BETCHAY!!!!!/ Barbs/ Bcube
C- Che-che!
D- Dina!/Ditas!
E- Elmira!
F- Flor!
G- Gladys!
H- Herms!/Hilda!
I- Isay!
J- JOLEVI!!!!
K- Kringkring!
L- Lita!/Lilibeth!
M- Marissa!!/ Maura!!
N- Nena!!/ Nelda!
O- Ofie!!
P- Patring!!
Q- Queenie!!
R- Ruby!!Rowena!!
S- Siony!!
T- Thess!!
U- Ula!!
V- Virgie!!
W- Winnie!!
X- Xandrah!!
Y- Yolly!!
Z- Zorayda!!!!

PANALO SI BETCHAY!!!!!!!!!
BIDA NG BARANGAY!!
TAGAPAGAHON NG BUHAY!
BETCHAY.... PARA KONSEHAL!
IBALIK SA SENADO!! (ang bilis. hahaha!!)
BETCHAY... ANG SIGA NG BAYAN.


there you go.

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LAUGH TRIP MAN!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!! fun,fun. :)

so that's all for tonight. i leave you folks to.. contemplate. contemplate on your alternative name... do YOU look like a BETCHAY?? ..I THINK NOT! THERE CAN BE ONLY ONE. *smirk "hmmmmmm?" face of betchay*

hahaha!!!

ok. :) good evening.



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.:[ Friday, May 14, 2004 ]:.

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like, hi :)

this is chelymoo. i have taken over this red city of a blog. yes. i will paint this blog red. redder. REDDEST.

hi :)

ayaw kasi mag-sign out ng blogger mo, dengks e. so dito na lang ako mag-post while you're lying on your bed watching tv.

henihoo..

i woke up this morning at around 11 and my nose was itching like hell and my eyes all teary cos i have that morning hachoo syndrome that...

joke. hehe. nag-blog talaga. K!!!!

babay :)




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ok. as of today (actually, since 3 days ago), i am making this MY #1 happy song. the song that puts me in a happy jumpy mood. :) ("O bla di - O bla Da" has just been bumped-off down to #2.) K! go read. or listen. whatever.


ALL I REALLY WANT
-Alanis Morissette-


Do I stress you out?
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate
I dont want to dissect everything today
I dont mean to pick you apart you see
But I cant help it

There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasnt there already
If only I could hunt the hunter

And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance

Do I wear you out?
You must wonder why Im relentless and all strung out
Im consumed by the chill of solitary
Im like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
Im frustrated by your apathy

And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker
And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature

What I wouldnt give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldnt give to meet a kindred

Enough about me! lets talk about you for a minute
Enough about you! lets talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around . . . all around

Why are you so petrified of silence
Here can you handle this? ...

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think youre gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction

And all I need now is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man
A place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
All I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice . . .



happiness is. :)




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I

AM

BACK.


redder than ever.



Hello. :)


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.:[ Saturday, May 08, 2004 ]:.

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my head is a blank. and i don't know which is worse. having too much thoughts..or no thoughts at all. parang bangag na ewan. i guess i should sleep. ok, bye!

duh.

k. i'm using the old computer here sa libaray, coz my pc's being fixed. mini-makeOveran. kawawa. sensitive yun e. pc ko. ayaw magpagalaw. hmmm.... wala lang.

gah! sige.. perhaps tomorrow, hopefully, when i get my pc back, i get to fix my blog too. coz right now it's.............. on warped mode.

*some people want diamond rings.. some just want everything.. but everything is nothing.... if i don't have you.*

there you go. alicia keys. quite a talented young gal. <- haha ..gal?!?! gad. i need to sleep more.

ang saya, nag-reminisce kami ni bon... nung grade 4 get-up na cycling shorts lang at t-shirt and japorms namin..tapos na-uprade to croco kids and esprit.. at nung pa highschool sikat naman ang girodano at pagbibintangan ka pa na fake yung giordano shirt mo kasi tao yung logo. hihi! (hoy sikat din nun ang banana rep!!! sosyal ka nun mehn!! hahaha!) BUT mostly, nag-reminisce kami ng mga songs at bands nung grade 6 - highschool kami.... (yung mga jologs! hihihi!) and it all started with "DROWNING" by the backstreet boys, baby!!! haha! pinatugtog kasi sa MYX. why?? i do not know. haha! at ayan na!! the recalling begins. with nick carter the scrawny boy to AJ the finale man..(huh?! haha!) pero college kami nun. (yuck parang ang tanda na daw. hihi!) ...anyway, nakakatuwa lang. such...... laughter. haha def leppard!!! (WOoooH!!;p), BON JOVI RAKS MEHN!!!! poison!.. scorpion! (grabe!! nasingit pa ang ac/dc!) and bon's rockstar days of 4 Non Blondes.. AHAHAHAHAHA!!:D ..G'N'R!!! AXL FOREVAH!! november rain!!! metallica!.. aerosmith "Get a griP!" - edward furlong! (yuck!)..and alicia silverstone pre-clueless days. .. "two steps behind" the first full song i learned sa guitar. HAha! ..97.1 dwLS, triggerman countdown days. ..more than words and..PATIENCE!!! hihihihihi!! :D ang top2 songs na pinapatugtog sayo kung marunong kang mag-gitara.:D ...grabe na itow. labanan pa nun ng "metal at hip-hop!!" haha! ..at.. PEARL JAM O NIRVANA?!?!! wala ka mehN! (uy but i love eddie vedder ha. nung magulo pa siya. ngayon, tatay look na siya e..quite.. old. hihi!) GRUNGE RULES!!! PAHNKS NAT DEAD!!!!! aah.. soundgarden. and collective soul. stp. greenday. toad the wet sprocket. gin blossoms. candlebox. NO RAIN!!!!! (one of my favorite happy songs ever!) ..marami din namang maganda.:) ..but the hell! we had the best times.. super fun. ang saya alalahanin. galeng.:) parang kailan lang....*kumanta* HAHA!

hihihihihi!! funny. :D

hay.

k.

i think...... i shall eat yet again. i ate too much oil today. i swear, my stomach is rallying against it. (good i suppose...hmm) k!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i shall fix you when my pc gets fixed first.

one last thought. (uuuy may thought na ko..) Everything in life is a choice. And every moment is a chance to turn things around.

i mean it man. super.

k.


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.:[ Wednesday, May 05, 2004 ]:.

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hmmm..... there's something weird in the air.

ewan.


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.:[ Tuesday, May 04, 2004 ]:.

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SUPER HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEL!!!! SURPRISE!!!!!!!! MY GIFT FOR YOU! A YELLOW BOARD FOR THE YELLOW POUPON! :D PADDOL!! PADDOL!!! .. WHOOOooooOOOOOoooOOOOOOOoohhHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! \m/ \m/



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i could die right now and die happy. today seemed such a perfect day. like good karma was everywhere. and i was just riding the best wave ever. SUPER scarily happy day.

1. WWF. Wow mehyn! i dunno.. i was just.. speechless and overwhelmed at how everything happened. the people were greeeeat and uber nice, and supportive! and passionate for all the same reasons and causes i'm passionate about. and they weren't hung-up with looks and money and all that. simple, casual, down-to-earth people who want to help the world be a better place. ..kinda scary and parang "twilight zone" yung mga pangyayari, pero sana totoo na 'to. sana masaya. yun lang. sana masaya at hindi ako magiging tulad ng karamihan kong kilala na iritang-irita sa trabaho. i also hope that i do good, and be able to produce as expected. ..scary....but.. bring it on mehyn!!!!!! BRING IT!!!!!!!!! uuurrrrrrgH!!!!!!!! gaaaaah!!!!!!

2. great friends. hands down.. my friends are the spice in my otherwise routinary slient existence. isn't it amazing how you become friends with someone??? SUPER galeng. it's always like fate. destiny. like when you think about it... da hell! my best friends were all strangers once! people i never knew existed! and now, i wouldn't know how to exist without them. like how great is that. Amazing talaga. like, i wouldn't know anymore how a day would be like if i'm not gonna be texting chely about something. Or.. i wouldn't know what my environmental plans would be like if ais isn't there beside me supporting the same things. Or... i wouldn't know how my life would be if bon isn't there to just...be there!-for anything and everything, confusing 4am moments to cheering 4am tennis moments. Or.. gad! so much random "i need wisdom" moments that i just wouldn't know how it would be if i don't have sophie's enlightening advices. Or... good old friends that just really make you feel light and warm inside. friends like Mom, Kat, Trace..Tammy... whom i know are just gonna be there no matter what! forever and ever and ever!!! ...and there are the new friends you make and meet that feels just as great to have, coz it's always nice to ask questions about the lives and dreams of people whom you are interested in. ...just great. Friendships. the best thing.

*sometimes i just wanna live in a bubble and keep all my friends there, and have this perfect moment where we're all just hanging around with no existence of time.*

3. Family. my family has always been close. Close as in... it's not like we have all these deep talks all the time.. it's more of.. my family has always been... just there. TOGETHER. as in, when one needs to go to the mall, everyone comes along. or when we decide to go out of town or out of the country, dapat LAHAT kasama, kundi wag na lang. yung ganung tipo ba. talagang, one for all, all for one type. kanina... when my sistur and i went to the mall together.. while waiting for the car, biglang tumahimik. napaisip lang ako. tapos bigla na lang ako nalungkot. aww. my sister's gonna live na sa States?!?! pano na kung kelangang maayos ako, sino na mag-aayos sakin?? (yeah,my sister has every clothing one needs to survive any occassion. as in ANY. and i'm just the opposite. me ms.casual forever who doesn't shop. hehe) ..but this just makes me feel overly blessed with the family that i have. I just love them very much. Makes me wanna cry. I'm super thankful for them talaga. And i thank my parents for making this family as it is. though we're no perfect bunch... i love US. ..tapos my dad and my mom asked me pa how the wwf thingy went. and my mom wasn't really so HOT about it since before before pa cos of all the traveling involved and kasi hindi naman talaga big money dun, pero kanina, since she saw na ang happy ko, tinanong niya ko during lunch.. "so yan talaga ang gusto mo, maych? (i nodded) so you found your place. not lang one foot, both your feet are in." ...la lang. :) short, weird, but.. nice, reassuring to hear. :)

4. Dinner with old friends. Mom, Apple, Agnes, Liam... had a fun time. :) ate well too. Dencio's. super nice to see friends na matagal mo ng hindi nakikita. sarap lang nilang titigan. hehe.. i like watching. and staring. kaya lang bastos daw e, so sige wag na lang. ;p no, it's just nice, super calming for me to just enjoy my friends faces.. them just being there. existing right in front of me. breathing as i am. ..kewl. :) i love it. i love just stopping and realizing that "woah..this moment is perfect." ang calm sa soul.

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oh well, which brings me then to the other side of the coin...... feelings that bother me even when things couldn't be more beautiful.

i'm scared. of the changes that's about to be happening. i know i'll be fine. i know i will manage. just a feeling that i can't help but have. this feeling of how will things be once i do start working and getting busy? no more relak time with friends. no more BUMMINGNESS!!!!!!! no more "4:30pm na, hindi pa ko naliligo" days. no more "movie tayo! marathon! ..ngayon na!" days. no more internet, ym, blog, friendster the whole day day. no more just everyday planning with friends. ...daming mag-babago. i know everything's gonna be ok, pero.... wala lang. tao lang. scary lang. can't help but wonder and be bothered.

i'm scared. of great expectations bein blown over. i only hope, i try not to expect. but that journey from hoping to the actual happening.. just can't stop me from thinking and being anxious. gah! ...i think too much, it's crazy!!!!! nevermind. WWF, here we come. let's save the world.

i'm worried. of how my mom will be when my sister and enzo leaves na talaga. she's the kind who HATES the idea of her children/ family far away. hates it, i say. kahit nga ako pag lumalabas, hindi na siya mapa-relax e. e hindi nga ko lumalabas e diba!!!!! basta, ganun kasi siya. e yoko nga sanang ganun siya kasi ... it just adds to her stress. and I HATE it when she's stressed. i just hate it. hate#1. coz it's bad for her. and anything bad for my mom.. i HATE. ..so, i'm worried.

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i'm terribly sleepy, but i just can't NOT write about what i'm thinking and what has happened on this great day, may3,2004. though napaka-lagkit ng panahon... yung mga pangyayari couldn't have happened more brillantly as they did. so, thank you God. grabe. GGGGRRRRRRAAAAAAAABE. WOW. thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you , thank you , thank you, thank you , thank you, THANK YOU.

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still wanna surf though.

*****

May 4 na!!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dream. believe. CONQUER!!! :) YEEEEEEEHA!!!!! since march11 (tama ba?:D) my life has become totally funner with you around. everyday and forever mehyn.. BPS 4 ETERNITY.. AND BACK!!!! :D *cheers!!!!!!*

******

GOOoooOOOOooooooooodniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight WwoooooorLd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (uy, haven't said good night like that ng matagal na ah..hihi! k.) wow. thank you thank You thank YOu Thank you GOd talaga again. owkee. :)



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.:[ Monday, May 03, 2004 ]:.

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i do wonder, too, why friends have to just grow apart.. pwede namang.. still be super friends even if you're "growing" in different fields of life, diba? so i think it's more of how. and i think it's coz you just lose time for each other. when you just... stop having.. taking time for each other's shit and all that jazz. sometimes you're not even conscious of it happening... then... *swiiiiiiiiiifffff* ..you just slip away.

let's not. ever!

oh no... bakit parang tunog nag-papaalam na.. a premonition of some forks on the road??? ..the hell. each step, baby! each step takes a lifetime.. see you at siargao.

labo. or not. ??

ah crap!!!!

and now i'm here..... 9:23am.... di pa ko naliligo.. di ko pa lam ano susuotin ko..... and i can't breathe properly. (na-move naman meeting sa hapon e. pero punta lang ako early ngayon.) ..oh but i did eat oatmeal. i love oatmeal. :)

hydeeho... let's do this right.

the power of God is within me.



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.:[ Saturday, May 01, 2004 ]:.

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i'm so sleepy but i can't stop thinking.
ever had those moments?
you're half asleep, but mostly half awake..
you pick-up your guitar, close your eyes, and start playing.
make-up songs and lyrics that speak more than you think,
but you brush it off as some random thing.
you sing your heart,
but no one's listening.
strum, strum..
mumble, babble...
then you stop.
and you're once again afloat.
just thinking..
and thinking.
and thinking some more.
just thoughts rocketing through your brain like drunk fire flies..
bumping each other off.
blinding each others light..
thoughts that don't really mean a thing...
but somehow feel so monumental.
heavy.
..consequential.
like a problem you've carried all along.. all your life.
never solved.
never figured out.
not even close.
but the question really starts and ends and goes around and around and around forever,
as to what IS the problem anyway??
you can't really pinpoint what it is in the first place, can you..
do you even have one?
is it really there?
or is it just you and your silly little inventions and complications you create in your life?
goes across and between,
and over and beyond.
just another bug pestering your floating mind.
just another dream.
another vision.
another spurt.. and last moment gasps for a solution.
then you pause....
give it a while
but you really don't have much space left to process.
crank, crank, crank.....
you dive!
try to grasp it..
hold on...
but it slips away slowly.
what was it?!
oh it made perfect sense, you recall.
but you can't.
you forgot.
..and forget.
and you're left with just another thought.
just
another
thought.
thus the spiral in your brain continues to swirl.
and it keeps you up...
half asleep.
but mostly half awake.

and here i am.

speaking.
dreaming.
of nothing.
but could be whispering every answer i've been needing.

is it?

another thought.

bear with me..



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