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*Hindi Mo Lang Alam*


ang ganda ng buwan.
parang ikaw,
hindi mo lang alam.
parang ang buwan,
ang layo mo;
pero ang sarap mo lang tignan.
ang galing mo e.
hindi mo lang alam.
hindi ko mahawakan
hindi ko mayakap
hindi ko maangkin
pero ok lang.
kakantahan pa din kita
ngingitian gabi-gabi
titingalaan at mamahalin
kahit wala kang ibabalik.
sapat na sakin ang titigan ka sa layo ko
masaya na kong iniilawan mo.
yakap ko na lamang ang liwanag mo
ang mga alaalang dala neto
at mga gawa-gawang isipan
ating mga kwento.
tanging hiling ko lang ay lumigaya ka
patuloy na magbigay saya.
sa mga katulad kong walang magawa
sa mga katulad kong mangha sa yong ganda.
sa mga katulad kong kailangan ng inspirasyon.
sa mga katulad kong mag-isa ngayon...
at habang panahon.
ang ganda ng buwan.
parang ikaw,
hindi mo lang alam.


-july28,2004.12:49AM-

ang ganda ng buwan ngayong gabi. :)

parang ikaw..

araw-araw.


:)


:)



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.:[ Tuesday, July 27, 2004 ]:.

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Lord, help me to give without expecting anything in return.


Sorry..=S Thanks.





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.:[ Sunday, July 25, 2004 ]:.

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~o~




holy shit, i miss Flying Ipis. =S












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Yesterday...

I woke-up from a great night's sleep. :) Refreshing. Gassed-up, full tank. Like i could feel everything without really trying. Had this calming effect on me. I just sat on my bed for three quarters of an hour with my blanket still on. just being awake. just BEING. nice sleep. :) waited for chely to wake-up. .. i spent the whole day bumming with chely. :) just like the previous day. :D no plans. no pressures. no reasons. no worries. just enjoying the length of time and every second. together. :) nothing more relaxing. just like a great night's sleep. refreshing. rejuvenating. ah! like surfing. :) like riding a wave, even if the wave is over, you can't wait to paddle back and get on the next break; and you never get tired; and you just go on and on and on and on. aaah...:) you don't even notice that time exists. just keeps on going forever. and i love that it just does. can't get enough.:) and so... i have pink nails.:) chely has pink nails too!:) ala imelda. yes. i know how to put nail polish. congrats, the world can end. AH! speaking of Imelda, we watched it the other day. all i can say is that... IBA SI IMELDA. yun lang. IBA SI IMELDA. :) .. after painting our nails and munching away...

we watched -> "Monster." and all i can say is that... IBA SI CHARLIZE THERON! IBA!!!!! wait.... IBANG-IBAAAA!!!! haha!:D superb make-up and role preparation. astig. super. the kind of film that makes me squirm and close my eyes due to.. ummm.... yon. shet. affecting. ayoko ng may mga abuse-abuse! rape! eek! nakaka.. lungkot. lungkot. .. lungkot. good film, have to say. heavy. sad. how people are driven to be who they are. how people choose to live their lives. how hard life just is for some people. how ALL our actions and choices starting from the get go, no matter how small, whether a mistake or a wise move, eventually catch-up on us and shape the people who we are right this very moment. how some people are not given any much choice right from the beginning. (but let me just say, that we ALWAYS have a choice. ALWAYS. believe in that.) how some people aren't given second chances. how people are just too hard on people. how people could be just plain cruel. sick. bad. how we all just want to be loved. and heard. appreciated some bit.. and know that somehow, we matter. .. all that and more.

it's evening once again. fixed a bit and ran off to mira's dinner. ate A LOT OF CHICKEN. siguro isang buong manok din yun. sarap the gravy. jigs, jill, annie, brian (with kenN)... nice to see them all again.(uuy rhyming.) nice to just listen to their stories. their jokes. their voices. made me realize that i missed them too. But with them all talking about media and advertising and their "work" and this and that, made me feel good about NOT wanting that. not wanting to be in that world. made me feel proud and fuzzy inside to talk about WWF with them. as Kenn said, "how noble naman." is it? it feels just normal to me. i don't feel any more special or anything. hmm, flattering, thanks, at the same time it just made me think to myself.. what is being "noble?" **NOBLE: characterized by or indicative of virtue or magnanimity. generous, not petty, mean, or selfish.** hmmm... then shouldn't we all aim to be noble then? to have noble jobs and noble lives?? wala lang. just made me think why am i the only one there who was called "noble?" shouldn't we all aim to be? ..anyway, just listening to them talk about ratings and commercials, their clients and agencies... made me feel that i really wanted more than what they're talking about. made me feel good about myself. that i want to feel nature inside out. that i want to squeeze life to taste it's natural juices; capture moments, and make them live forever. that i want to run outdoors and race after the sun. that i don't want to be in the office, in the city scene, in the IN places and events... i want to be OUT there. where the wind is. where the sea calls. aaaah.. i dunno.. call me weird, crazy, different, hopelessly idealistic. but i'd rather be all that than to be just like everybody else. it's hard to explain. i'm just that. but anyone who gets what i'm saying, cheers to you. ... i want to feel Earth.

makes me happy to hear that they're doin great though. how these college buddies of mine whom i once bummed around with at mascom, just day dreaming and eating endlessly, are now planning their careers. trying to live their loves. building their lives step by step. choosing paths. cool. :) i wish them passion. i pray for them.

and so...... the day ends here.

and begins again.


Thank you Lord for all moments shared. FOr all moments, period.


Happy Birthday, HAgs!! :) love kita like raaaaaaaaain on yer wedding day! :) :)

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GoooOOOooOOOoOOOOoOOOOOoOOOOoOD NIGHT UNIVERSE!!!!!! :) i pray for all those who are abused... and abuse. Amen. May we all have a looooooovely Sunday. SMILE! :) God is watching. :)



i hate vulgarity.



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.:[ Friday, July 16, 2004 ]:.

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this is my mom. :) my most precious gift from God. :) it's her birthday today. :) Happy Birthday, Ma!!


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.:[ Tuesday, July 13, 2004 ]:.

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~o~



There is none so blind as he who will not see.
We must not close our minds,
we must let our thoughts be free.
For every hour that passes by,
you know the world gets a little bit older.
It's time to realize that beauty lies
in the eyes of the beholder.



~o~






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.:[ Monday, July 12, 2004 ]:.

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uuuuuuyYYYY di pa ko natutulog!!!!

and... why am i still blogging??

bakit ba.

see, i don't HATE editing. i think the actual editing part is pretty fun naman. nakaka-hook din. nakaka-OC!! But what i don't like about editing.... is the CAPTURING. oh gosh... takes forever!!!!! (uuuuuuy,bawal OA. hihi!) no but it just takes sooooooo freakishly long man. grabe. Ate's Audio-Visual report sa kanilang Narsing class. about BONES.

ooh i love bones.

when i was a kid i'd memorize one a day. FOR FUN. yun yun e. kasi gusto ko maging Orthopedic e. ngayon..gusto ko pa din..pero...hindi ako dun nadala ng simoy ng hangin e ..at ng tugtog ng gitara.:) huh? basta yon.:) galing noh? how we can have so many dreams and can change and bounce from each one.. kasi ika nga ni Captain Planet... "the power is yooooours!" :)


anyway, we started CAPTURING at around 3:30pm. Natapos ako mag-capture ng 10pm. Tama ba yon?! shet. nakakatamad lang kasi. ...uuuuy,pero ang batang tamad, magkakakalyo sa pwet! HUWAT?!?!! e pano sa editing lagi kang naka-upo?!?!?!! ..tama bang makipag-sagutan sa sarili ko?! HAHAHA!!! i'm sorry, wala akong tulog.:) masaya ako. heeeheee!!!!:D

o basta i'm not fond of capturing video for editing. nakaka... blegh. editing masaya naman e. saya magkalikot ng kung anu-anong efek-efeks, ganyan ganyan..

But... i just want to say.... i had a good time being sleepless with my Ate. :) tawa lang kami ng tawa! pinagtatawanan namin yung mga groupmates niya! WAHAHAHAHAAA!!! pero pramis nakaka-iniiiiiiiiiiis sila mag-voice over! napaka WALANG BUHAY!!! as in parang yung mga PASYON??! yon. gosh. sayang naman ang BONES. may isang parang kulang sa vitamins mag-salita. yung isa may V-B-F-P syndrome. (example, the quick vrown pox jumfed ober the.... YON.) yung isa naman talo pa si scooby-doo sa pagka-bulol bulol. and lahat sila, nag-stu-stu-stu-stutterr-ter. GRABE NA. NAKAKATANGANG I-EDIT!! super nakakairita?! at nagkaroon ng part na every 2 minutes, while editing her groupmate's portion, tinatanong ko sa Ate ko, "nag-aaral ba 'to??!" NYAaaAAaRRrrr!!!... hay. BASTA. napaka DUH nung guy magsalita. DUUUH. ... pero..... ayun. masaya. :) kasi happy kami ni Ate e kahit na asar. hihi! asar sa report, asar sa groupmates, asar sa pagkapuyat na dapat plano namin til midnight lang, basta! may isang moment na TAWA LANG KAMI NG TAWA! HAHAHA!! AS IN! tipong nung umaga na, tinanong ko siya bakit na nga tayo tawa ng tawa?? wala saming makaalala. hihihihi!!! BANGAG!! :D :D pero alala ko SOOOOBRANG TAWANG TAWA 'KO kinailangan kong tumayo at lumabas ng kuwarto kasi ayaw mag-stop. :D ang saya. :D

AY! tapos eto.. yung isang groupmate ni Ate na lalaki nag-rereport about the collar bone, etc. SO e di ine-edit ko na yung voice over niya. ok naman. maayos. pinaghandaan. nag-stu-stutter nga lang, pero atleast pinaghandaan. at mukha namang sigurado siya sa sinasabi niya diba. BUT NO... lagi niyang inuulit yung word na "CALVIC BONE." blablabla, the CalvIc bone is connected blablablabla... tapos bigla na lang napaisip ako.. ANO ANG CALVIC BONE?!??!??? tumingin ako sa Ate ko, "ANO DAW?!" tanong ko. kasi he sounded so sure e, so baka naman diba never ko lang talaga siya narinig in my life. NO.... bigla na lang sa next na pag-play ko ng voice over niya sabi , "..the calvic bone or the collar bone...." .. ... .. ... .. ..... ... AAAAAH!!!! CLAVICLE BONE!!!!!! AHAHAHA!!!! HUWAT! pano nangyari yon?! CLA-CALVI-CLE-VIC????? :D ang gulo! ang gulo!!:D tawa kami ng tawa kasi tulad nga ng sabi ko sa Ate ko, "..he sounded so sure." HAHAHAHA!!! so ngayon alam niyo na --> CALVIC = CLAVICLE. :D May problema ba???!!?!

HAHAhaA!! wala lang. natawa kami e. lahat na lang ng bagay nakakatawa pag nag-eedit ka madaling araw na tapos parang ang dami-dami pa din, at yung ineedit mo nakakatanga sila pakinggan, at lahat nakakairita na.. TAWANAN NIYO NA LANG!! hahahaha!!! :D :D :D para masaya diba. :)

..kahit walang tulog. AT walang bayad.. at kahit na ayaw mag-render nung lecherngkaskjeasfaufh na video na yun. (pero ngayon ok na. thanks.) shyet ha. like.. di tuloy ako nakalabas at nuod ng sine.

BUT.. like i said.. masaya naman with Ate. :) so.. ok lang. :) masaya. :D

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oh and i had a BONE DENSITY EXAM nung Saturday!!! :D ASTEEEEEEEEEG!!! hiihii!!:D basta some test that'll check if your bones are healthy or you're in danger na of osteoporosis,etc. it also measures your body fat and body muscles/mass. basta! ASTIG.:D nakaka-inspire maging healthy. :) lalo na pag... ahem.. borderline osteopenic ka. hihi!! yeah,borderline daw ako. kasi naman i'm lactose intolerant. i don't get to drink milk. tapos di din ako ma-dairy products. sana marami na lang calcium sa kanin. e di ang saya-saya ng mga buto ko nun. pero nothing to fear coz it's not progressive. and yun daw talaga average dito sa pilipinas. borderline osteopenic. natawa nga ako, kasi dad ko yung nag-basa ng results shempre, e part nga yun ng report ng Ate ko so vinideo lahat yon. natawa ko kasi sabi ng dad ko dun sa video habang sinasabi niya results ng bones ko... e "..blablabla her bones are blablabla, she should change her diet blablabla, because.. well.. coz.. she's abnormal." ..natawa ako. haha! :D yessss,fathers also know best. HUH?!?! HAHAHA! mukang sira. :D

anyway... had a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG weekend. supER parang napagod ako dun ah! SUNDAY whole day EDIT til MONDAY today kanikanina lang; SATURDAY - 6AM badminton and tennis day with Bon, East and Zeus.. WOOOHOOOOO PANALO KAMI!!! :D GIRLS RULE!!!! :D hihi! UUUUUY, SOMEBODY'S LOSiiiiNG!!! HAHA!;P tapos after that, straight na to shoot the video report nila Ate at natapos yun before dinner naman. pero..nakakapagod lang kasi i slept at around 3AM the previous "night". why??? coz... hmm.. well,went to makati friday to look for the Nike Mondragon Sale..then met Chely at greenbelt.:D :) then ate at MYLK for fweee kasi.. libre daw pag cute kayo e. :D ay shyet kaya pala libre din sine namin!! HahAHa!:D and then watched KILL BILL VOL2! :D (woooh! feel ko nasa Amazing Race tayo nun ah! NASAAN ANG GLORIETTA 1??:D) the movie was astig. dunno which one i like more.. the 1st one had a lot more keeeewl bloody action sequences, i must say. but the 2nd had a lot more emotion and human connection. both cool though.:) warped quentin tarantino. sicko.:) ..so,thus,therefore.. got home around 2AM na. tapos di pa ko natulog agad kasi nag-laba pa ko. hmm.. yes. there you go. nag-laba ng 2AM. one of my hobbies. :D hihihihi!! jowk. la lanG!! gusto ko e. so yon. slept at 3, woke-up at 5:30, sports day, video shoot, then next day eeeeedit,edit,edit,edit.

..woooh!..

and here i am. :)


good weekend, i suppose. :) Had a good Mass. ..and.. Better busy than bored, huh. But then.. that depends on you right. You can still find it boring to be busy, or find yourself bored while being busy.. and you can always think that your busy by being bored. ..hmmm... i'm... hihi! BLAGGGGGING! :D no but serioius... all i'm saying is that it is all about perspective. perspective. perspective. perspective. :) Life is an amazingly beautiful psychidelic ocean if you believe it so.

..so let's. :)


WOOOOoOOOOoooooOOOoOOOOOHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! sometimes it's good to be sleepless. :) ..or NOT! :)K. perhaps i shall watch tv. or sige na nga..sleep. perhaps. perhaps. perhaps. :)


HAAAPPEEEEEEEEEEE DAY WORLD!!!!!!! :D




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.:[ Sunday, July 11, 2004 ]:.

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just came from mass..

..a quick post before we go to eat lunch....


i just want to say that i love going to church. gives me peace and wisdom.. the strength i need. ang sarap-sarap. :) parang ang gaang gaang lahat.. tapos dami kong hope na nakikita. nararamdaman. ..ang ganda ganda lahat.

hay. :)

sana lahat ng nakikita ko, nakikita ng lahat.

i hope that God helps me, all of us, see what He wants us to see.

I hope that we care before we hate.

Understand before we judge.

May we all live in truth.

And that... i just hope that in my own little efforts..with this life God gave me.. that i may be able to light a dark corner.

that i may be better for all my brothers and sisters who depend on me, and i depend on..

that i may be the best for You, Lord....

that we may all be that for You, Lord.


ang ganda-ganda. :)


k, gotta gooooooooooooOOOOO!!!!!!!


Awit ng Paghahangad


O Diyos Ikaw and laging hanap
Loob koy Ikaw ang tanging hangad
Nauuhaw akong parang tigang na lupa
Sa tubig ng Yong pag-aaruga.


Ikay pagmamasdan sa dakong banal
Nang makita ko ang Yong pagkarangal
Dadalangin akong nakataas aking kamay
Magagalak na aawit ng papuring iaalay.


Refrain:
Gunita koy ikaw habang nahihimlay
Pagkat ang tulong Mo sa twinay taglay.
Sa lilim ng Iyong mga pakpak,
Umaawit akong buong galak.


Aking kaluluway kumakapit sa Yo
Kaligtasay tyak kung hawak Mo ako.
Magdiriwang ang Hari, ang Diyos Siyang dahilan
Ang sa Iyo ay nangako galak yoong makakamtan.
Gunita koy ikaw habang nahihimlay
Pagkat ang tulong Mo sa tiwinay taglay.
Sa lilim ng Iyong mga pakpak,
Umaawit, umaawit, umaawit akong buong galak..



KANTA TAYOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :)





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why can't people mean what they say?

people take for granted the power of words.

i believe that words are the windows to ones soul.


yeah.


..giant doors.






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.:[ Wednesday, July 07, 2004 ]:.

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WUSHU! WUSHU!! para kay Cam!!!!! :) haha!


LET'S GO GINEBRA!!!!!!!! CHAMPION NA ITOW!! :D



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cooked salmon spread


raw salmon spread


salmon shanghai and, yezzz, chardonnay.


yummm.. just some of the food i ate last monday. :)


ibang view naman. (kasi may diperensya diba. hihi! K.)






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.:[ Sunday, July 04, 2004 ]:.

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INTRODUCING... THE SHARAPOVA ERA.


Fearless tennis.


"COOOOOME ONNNNNN!!!!!!!" aggression and intensity, baby!!!!




eto na yun eh... THE MOMENT. :)




17 years old, 2months... youngest, next to martina hingis, and FIRST RUSSIAN to win at Wimbledon. ..SHET!!




aaah... Wimbledon. :) The Venus Rosewater Dish. :)





The future is NOW.:)

BRING IT ONNNN!!!!






but of course, i'm still waiting for Martina to comeback. :) leche.


WOOOOOoHOOOOooOOOOOOOooOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haven't been this super happy and excited watching tennis for the looooongest time. :) :) with martina gone, venus struggling.... WOOOOOoooHHOOOoooOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COOOOOOOOOME ONNNNNNNN, MARIA!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) and so... TENNIS IS BACK. :)


am so happy! am so happy! am so happy!!! :D HYPERRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! nyarRRRrRrRRRR!!!!! :) :) :) :) again...


CONGRATULATIONS TO MARIA SHARAPOVA!! :) my new manok! :) :) YAhOoOooo!!!!





Good night world and one and all. :)





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