.:[ Sunday, January 30, 2005 ]:.

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marat won! my gosh, he's back. but i kinda feel bad for lleyton.. not a fan, but naawa lang ako kasi nasa kanya yung pressure being an australian and all.. and 1976 pa since last may nanalong aussie. BUT THEN buti na lang nanalo si marat ha! kundi sayang ang pagtalo niya kay roger. hmph. and as usual, parang bangag na madaldal na naman siya nag-speech. hihi!

anyway... not much to say really. no bubbles today.

last friday went to UP for DestINO 3... so much memories.. i remember my haggardness that day 3 years ago... but it was worth it man. so much worth it. and now, on its 3rd year... hope it goes on for another 30. and i really do hope broadguild gets to help more organizations in need. maybe we can have a suki beneficiary para talagang maramdaman nila ang tulong ng munting org natin. AND sana naman ay mas magandang movie naman ang ipalabas natin!! i suggest BREAKFAST AT TIFFANY'S!! please hear me!! let's show a classic this time! something maybe more.. impactful. yung may "uy diba pinalabas yun ng broadguild last year" powers na movie. ..tsaka sana mas paglaruan pa uli ang ambience.:) just like the kalesa and the marriage booth and handcuff booth chovas. hihi! but still CONGRATS BROADGUILD!! to meanne and her staff..to all the members.. uy ang ganda ng avp natin ah!:) ..CONGRATS TO ALL OF YOU, and me. hehe, joke lang:)

oh it was nice seeing old friends too pala!! sophie!! my gosh! you seem to be exuding a brighter and lighter aura.:) beautiful. SOOO nice to hear that you're doing better.:) kick ass!!! also saw tanya after a long time na din. HELLO.:) i am a fan of your blog entries.:) i just want you to know that.:) ..aah, and just being at the Sunken again.. Destino.. nice.:) sweet weather. daming memories bigla....

hay. :)

i am .... just so in love i could burst. :)

and i was just thinking.. why do people always assume that when you say you're "in love," automatically they think it's with a person? or that you must be romantically involved with someone? Or that it's not "REAL LOVE" if it's not with a person or that (eek) "special someone." la lang. Or when you say i love you to a person of the same sex you're automatically gay, or when you're not romantically involved with anyone that you're probably lonely, incomplete and sad?? GAH!!!! i hate that!! such narrowmindedness. pwe. wala lang. naisip ko lang na ang daming taong ganun. at ang dami ng ganung tao ang nag-tanong sakin ng mga tanong na yan sa buong buhay ko just because i don't have a boyfriend. deads. congrats to all of them.

AND SO.. i just want to say that.. i am so in love i could burst. :) :) :)


wala lang. :)

hi. :)


had a good time at mass kanina. enlightening.:) Fr. Jun-jun gives the best homilies ever. i love him.. he has that gift. congrats to him and those kind of people.. spread the Word. :)

MAN! ina asked chely and i, "SO WHAT DO YOU GUYS DO FOR FUN??" .. hahaha!!:D la lang. katuwa. kasi nahirapan kami sagutin.:) kasi parang, uh... lahat fun e!:D umm, i take a bath? hihi! lahat! we eat! watch movies! Ask each other questions.:) imagine, dream, breathe, and so on....:) cute.:) so cute.

plus may nag-tanong pa samin na "paano naging 'company' kung dalawa lang kayo???!" WELL, EXCUSE ME!! BUT WE KEEP EACH OTHER COMPANY. there you go. :D

the best company ever. :) :) :)


sha. i shall finish vcd transferring downstairs.



VOILA!




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.:[ Saturday, January 22, 2005 ]:.

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.... and so things are going great. life is a beach. everyday is a journey. sometimes i too get caught up in all the craziness and the unusual full skeds, but... i'm not complaining. i couldn't. Life is great. Confusing but, the heck! Life is THE journey. and the journey is what makes you.

just go with it man..


This morning, napa-isip na naman ako. ano ba talaga ang gusto kong gawin sa buhay ko? mashado kasing madami e. kailangan ba talagang pumili?? ang dami. gusto ko gawin lahat! ayan tuloy, hindi ko alam kung ano unahin, napapa-'bahala na' tuloy ako. nakakapagod naman kung lahat gagawin ko ng sabay-sabay, hindi din kaya. maikli ba talaga ang buhay? palagay ko nga. pero sobrang haba kung wala kang ginagawang masagana sa araw-araw. at ang bawat buhay naman natin tama lang sa kung ano mang plano ng Diyos sa atin. kaya't kaninang madaling araw, habang papuntang Candaba, tahimik na nakikinig sa likod ng pick-up ni Lory, at sila ni Ivan ay nasa kalagitnaan ng mainit nilang diskusyones tungkol sa passion nila sa photography.. tinanong niya ako, "ikaw deng, what are you drawn to when you video?" ..wala akong masagot na masasabi kong galing sa kalalimlaliman ng aking puso. kasi sa totoo lang, i'm drawn to everything and anything at ang hirap pumili at isagot lahat. ang sinagot ko na lamang ay.. "ummm, nature stuff.. street scenes.." hmm.. pero sa totoo lang, the list can go on forever. i wanted to say "people, places, the ocean, everyday life, children, stories of pain, of glory.. mga bagay-bagay.. basura..tsinelas..." ...the list goes on talaga! pero mashado pang maaga at ayoko lang magsalita. ngunit kaya ako napaisip dahil, 'sandali, matatawag ko bang "passion" ko ang pagvivideo?' ewan ko. hindi ata. ah hindi ko alam. at sadyang may alinlangan. hala, ano bang punto ko at parang nawala nanaman ako. ewan. basta, gusto ko lang sabihin na kaninang umaga napag-isip isip na naman ako. at nakakapang hinang ewan. magulo subalit hindi naman ako galit o malungkot. sadyang napaisip lamang. para bang hindi ka sigurado sa buhay mo pero masaya ka naman.. 'e masaya ka nga ba talaga??' ang tanong mo sa sarili.. at ayan na muli, napapaisip ako. ang sagot ko: Oo naman, masaya talaga ako. pero talagang parang may hinahanap pa ako. nararamdaman kong kumakati ang balat ko e.. hindi tao, ngunit yung bagay na nakakaubos ng hininga sa kilig. actually, madami nga. pano ba yun, e ganun ako e. pero sa dami, hindi ko tuloy alam kung ano at pano ko magagawa. sagot ko tuloy e laging 'hindi ko alam.' kung lahat ba magagawa ko, kung kaya ko ba, kung tama ba.... hay. eto na nga lang. ..pero sana. sana talaga. nakakagulo lang. wala lang. ang gulo ko...

parang walang ending yun noh? e ganun e. hindi naman lahat may sagot sa hulihan.

Hmmm....



Every move you make has a consequential action. EVERY single move, decision... everything we do. and i don't know why but this thought just busted open as we got out of bulacan this morning. Hmm.. must be the breakfast i never had. huh? but it does noh? so we gotta be careful!!! we gotta be smart. always think of the future..in case it comes. at least you've something to fall back on later on if given the chance. keep on dreaming..

ah Bulacan. yes, i was in bulacan this morning for breakfast because i went to Candaba, Pamapanga to watch and video the migratory birds. The migratory birds. Oddly enough, all the birds we saw weren't migratory ones. except for the ducks. but who cares about them coz you always see them anyway right?! i was wanting to see a falcon, an owl, all the other unique birds i wouldn't normally get to see. meron daw kasi talaga nun dun. yez. but NOPE! they didn't come out today. last week daw mas marami. i was even expecting to see hundreds of them flying all at the same time, ganung type... but no. none of that. maybe once or twice or thrice lang. but in the end, as i assessed my bird-watching experience, i have come to this conclusion..... birds just do not excite me. period. they're beautiful, amazing to look at, enviable, but .... they just don't get my blood boiling.

BUT i am still super grateful that i was there, since i just tagged along with Lory, WWF head, and his "group." I was mostly quiet and just observant. well what's new huh. but it was an experience. i learned a lot. i learned that a telephoto lens could be really useful, and that french hip-hop at 5 in the morning could be surprisingly entertaining. or...not... whatever, i had fun anyway. :)

Next, Lory seems to trust my video skills. scary, flattering, makes me a bit shy and feel weird and unsure of myself deep inside. i am just thankful. anyway he said, i just don't know if it's really really gonna happen, but he said that on his next trip, he's gonna bring me as his video person. to video cetaceans - whales and dolphins. HUUUUWAAAAAT?!?!!! *faints* shet. kinikilig ako sa idea ha. :) riding on a boat filming these amazing mammals?!?! and who knows what else you're gonna get to see there?! i might get to see some birds after all!! hehe.. no, seriously, i really want to go whale and dolphin watching, and imagine if you get to study them and spend days just observing them... cool man.:) too cool. that would be a trip! weeeeee!!!! sana it happens. got me thinking nga again kanina coz the other guy we were with kanina in Candaba volunteered sa Babuyan Islands to study the cetaceans there.. and he said that it was the best experience of his life. i could just imagine... i want to do that some day. maybe next year, or i don't know.. but i want to do that someday.

But RIGHT NOW.... hungry soles media is doing quite well.:) and i'm excited for all the possibilities, all the dreams, the hopes, and all the help that we can offer the world. we'll do this right. ..Fun.fun.:)

aaah we'll buy us an island we both can just bum on. :)


Lately, i've come to the fact that i just go and pop my own bubble - psychotic but true. maybe coz things are going so great? that i'm just so kilig happy down to my stomach..? or/and maybe coz i'm just crazy and stupid and paranoid and human and insecure and childish and foolish and sicko that way.. but i've noticed it before pa. i just think crazy stuff. like, i SEE it man. in my head. like a real scenario complete with plot, story, dialogue, everything. so much so that sometimes, it really affects me. BAM! ganun. kakapang hina na tulala na ang bigat sa puso at hininga. like i really come down crashing hard man. AHH!!! i'm sorry. really. it's dumb, i know. but it comes with the complexity of my thinking.. my head's glitch. MY glitch. sorry. just the sad part of me, i guess. everyone has. i just need a hug.

Do you find yourself popping your own bubble??

ENOUGH for now.

ok, everybody, be good, have a great day.:) hug someone. :) really theraputic.




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.:[ Sunday, January 09, 2005 ]:.

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riot.




left or right or and..



let's go juliana palermo. from a loyal reader. men should get a grip. god.



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dedicated to the braincells that scatter

between midnight and the parallel plane

you're my little teapot
i say far from short and stout
there is your handle
melting my pout
can you hear me boiling?
i run to your shout
when i do come over
heard you wrong and loud

coz i'm just stupid.
i'm just flesh after all.
sorry
my fault entirely.

entirely.

and so it keeps on boiling
someone's trying to stay shut

doesn't matter.

and back to you
the sunshine that covers the steam
sweet glaze
i kiss your hand.

take a bow.

midnight strikes.

circles.



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.:[ Saturday, January 01, 2005 ]:.

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A BIG FAT THANK YOU TO THE LORD FOR 2004!!!!! :) :) :)




SO much happened.

All good.

I still have no words...

there are none.

mumbled..jumbled..flashes of memories....

All good. :)

EVen better than the previous ones.

So much new things happened.

Dreams i never knew would come true all in one year.

Prayers i didn't notice answered.

I just want to thank You.

Thank YOU.

FOr all Your wonders, Your grace, Your love...

For 2005, I just pray i'd be worthy of all Your splendor once more.

Each day.

Thank YOu. Thank You.

ThanK YOU.

...

And to Hungry Soles...

to FOREVER... :)

to everyday in between and beyond...

to you my jhfdsaiuoenjdfhjlhyewrqtafdbcjfowqepkljkczm'Zz'lxxzde'z.... :) :) :)

THank you. :)

I love you.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!! :D


let's just be a whole lot better this year hah? nicer, kinder... more in love.. more giving and understanding... lovlier.. lovable... more brillant. and free. More Jesus in our lives, for more people to SEE.

:)

let's do this right.




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